This is my first time back on Wordpress in a long time. Almost a full year and with that time away, much growth has occurred. I started Le Monsieur Èclectique as a resource for men similar to what women have MILLIONS of. But as I grew I realized I shouldn't let my blog and what I express be pigeon-held because of my fears. My insecurities. I don't want to be a reality tv star but I do want to help people. I remember at a friends funeral the pastor began preaching and a point he made is that "people who haven't gotten over things never shows their scars".
This quote has resonated with me for a couple of weeks now and it's true. I have no issues talking about my drunk of a father, or the numerous times I was molested as child. These are "scars" but they aren't really "hidden". They were more in special areas that aren't always visible. And I only show them when they are revealed or asked. These scars I have no problem showing. Hell, I'm anxious to show them. It's surprising the other scars that I haven't fully accepted, like being openly bisexual, or confronting my family about how much I despise them, the internal battle I constant have with my weight, I'm ups and downs with depression and the list goes on and on. It's crazy.
Every year I realize that I move more and more away from the "American Dream" of getting a great job, getting married and then having kids. My past keeps reminding me that I was never cookie cutter. My failures were the realization that I'm still not happy. Just to highlight the top failures and show my scars:
So life is going on and this new chapter. My book of life is continuous growing with deeper chapters. That are full of twist and turns; the rest part is that I wanna take everyone on this new life with me. So as I start these chapters, look out for my thoughts and videos and posts.
Le Monsieur Èclectique
"The Eclectic Gentleman"